i renounce you and your love now worthless since cold like the secret purpose who made me serve father, you who want me to unfold in some other world you who always change your name and call to arms in some iron game you who refuse to step aside as we toast the blushing bride i despise you, brother, you who wished to kill all those dressed in rags look who’s hiding now so still behind red flags it's you — who fought to throw the blacks off our sands and back into the sea -- no, it ain't me i protest you, i detest you i renounce you and the beasts of prey you admire and i defy you and all traitors alike and i hereby betray you who always crack up under fire and make this flame breathe stone i deny you, mother, you who won't seek the memory within yet who swore not to rise by sin now there's blood dripping from your teeth unto my skin beneath, into this hand of mine you who always betray time with false urgencies you, abandoned by your gods and laws and by your church with its borrowed myths now you try to hang on to this and beg for more in vain, it won't feel the same you, so talented, so gifted yet you see it as a curse or worse as a sentence that cannot be lifted i reject you, for i have failed you my teachers who somehow taught me to listen and to shout teachers, i need you more than anyone more than ever now i beg you not to judge me